Sunday, December 31, 2006
Pursuit Of Happyness
Went out tonight and watched that movie at the theater tonight with Jason and Valery. To see how much the Will's main character has t suffer to achieve what he wants, is quite a tear-jerking experience. I know it is not even remotely close to what the character goes through in the movie, but I did find myself reflecting on when I was not working, and the guilt I felt every day seeing Chloe, knowing that I had no way to support her at that time. I also remember how it felt that after that first day of work, knowing when I cam home, that I was doing the right thing for Chloe. Just when you thought a movie couldn't have any more bottoms, they manage to pull together a scene such as the one when they put a roll of toilet paper down on the subway bathroom floor, so they can have a place to sleep. And he is sitting on the floor crying, while people are knocking at the door trying to get in, and he has no other place to go. Those are the kind of scenes will affect everyone, but you can't help but see your own kids in that movie, when you are a parent. It just affects you more. Yeah, I came out of that movie a sobbing fool....
Friday, December 29, 2006
You bad lil' boy Saddam
Guess who's getting hung this week? Had me thinking about how intentionally well televised it will be. It is a gimme that thanks to TV like Al-Jazeera, the event will inevitably end up on the Internet. Makes me wonder how it will "accidentally get leaked to the big media. I would think from a moral standpoint it won't be aired, but when it hits the Internet, will morals really matter anymore?
Congrats to Kari and Tommy
Just heard about a week ago, that Kari and Tommy will be adopting their first kid-o in February! A big congratulation's to you both!!!!
When you need a babysitter, because you are no longer to stay awake, give me a call, I will pay it forward, some people did it for us as well!
When you need a babysitter, because you are no longer to stay awake, give me a call, I will pay it forward, some people did it for us as well!
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Quiet Tuesday
I'm working today, at the office I had the option to take Friday or Tuesday off, I chose Friday. It wasn't like I got to do anything relaxing with the time, it was devoted to wrapping up Christmas shopping. Oh well, here I am at the office, only 3 tech staff on duty, an not much of anything going on. Its a nice break. Get to catch up on some reading. Tomorrow involves a trip to Detroit to see 2 outside accounts for ITP. Sounds like another trip to Greektown Casino afterwards!
Chloe is learning to brush her teeth this week, this is picking it up fast, the first few days were trying, she didn't even like the idea of that brush in her mouth.
In a desperate attempt to find new music to inspire me, I went out a few days ago, and bought AFI "December Underground", and Mike Doughty's "Rockity Roll", And "Skittish". Al are great albums, I highly recommended them if you an underground kinda fellow. I really had to take a leap of faith on AFI, it felt like I was selling out to the ever-so-popular whiny sound that so many bands have today. This band shows some promise...
Chloe is learning to brush her teeth this week, this is picking it up fast, the first few days were trying, she didn't even like the idea of that brush in her mouth.
In a desperate attempt to find new music to inspire me, I went out a few days ago, and bought AFI "December Underground", and Mike Doughty's "Rockity Roll", And "Skittish". Al are great albums, I highly recommended them if you an underground kinda fellow. I really had to take a leap of faith on AFI, it felt like I was selling out to the ever-so-popular whiny sound that so many bands have today. This band shows some promise...
Friday, December 22, 2006
Got the day of today...
Hanging out at the house, telling myself should go out and get the last 3 things for Christmas, but I m so lazy today. I'm gonna watch Young and the Restless, and I am gonna like it.
At work, a couple of weeks ago I tried to make a meeting, and so stepped on my bosses toes, he still seems like he avoids me, hope he thinks I have gotten back into my bounds. I never wanted to do what it looked like to him I did. I felt really bad about that.
Chloe went to her well-baby doctor appointment yesterday, and for the first time in recorded history, left the office under her own power, not having a complete shit-fit. That lil lady is growing up
Brian Dymond will be back in town in a couple of days, I am really looking forward to seeing him
At work, a couple of weeks ago I tried to make a meeting, and so stepped on my bosses toes, he still seems like he avoids me, hope he thinks I have gotten back into my bounds. I never wanted to do what it looked like to him I did. I felt really bad about that.
Chloe went to her well-baby doctor appointment yesterday, and for the first time in recorded history, left the office under her own power, not having a complete shit-fit. That lil lady is growing up
Brian Dymond will be back in town in a couple of days, I am really looking forward to seeing him
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Chloe lately...
Oh, so you wanna help do dishes?
Thanksgiving, and the hat she made at daycare...
The chicken costume, Halloween
Picking out her pumpkins, October
Carving pumpkins
Somebody's ready for bed...
Chillin'
Typical Saturday
It usually goes like this....
7:30 am, starting to hear those mumbles coming out o Chloe's room. In my head I think "If I roll over and act like I didn't hear it, she will chill out for another 45 minutes or so, more sleep time for me." Proceed to roll over feeling relieved that it is not a weekday....
7:45 am, Chloe is hollering something, the words unintelligible, I assume it is something along the lines of "I know you're in there Dad, I'm just going to keep on hollering till you free me from this cage!" Time to wake up I think..... Gotta make sure Tracy doesn't get away with sleeping either! One smack to the ass follows... :-) (Sorry hun, we know we do that to each other all the time, have to admit it...)
7:50am, tote the kid downstairs, get a new diaper on her. Wish to myself there was some switch that would turn on a potty-trained mode.
7:55am, Turn on Playhouse Disney, this channel will be on for a while. we may sneek in book or 2 every now and then, but mostly the television. The guilt typically sets in telling myself we should be doing something far more fulfilling than this, sometimes, I switch up, most of the time, I don't....
8:30, "Kid-O" makes a dash to the Kitchen, hollering something, the kid speak filter turns on, and I start asking the questions like "You hungry?" or "You want something to drink?" She typically pulls the fridge open and shows us what she wants.
8:45, trying to eat my bowl of cereal, Kid-o no longer has any interest in what she was munching on, she now absolutely has to have whats in my bowl. For the tens of times I have probably said no, this time a yes is typically okay. Were sharing Cookie Crisp the rest of the way to the bottom of the bowl...
8:47, Chloe wants something from the counter that there is no way in hell she should have, those lips sag in the ends, and the tantrum is about to ensue. Here comes the yelling!
8:50, Yeah she's over it, already giggling again while watching the Wiggles.
9:00, Tracy will start running a list of all the thing that we absolutely have to get done, either for that day, or for the next 3 weeks, and adamantly describe how little time we have to get them done. This must typically raise my blood pressure a few notches every time.
9:10-12, A mix of Playhouse Disney, Finding Nemo, and Madagascar. I miss watching the Today show, or even the news! My internal dialogue speaks "Who is president again?, oh thats right..."
12:15, time to put the kid down for a nap, she usually doesn't put much of a dispute up over it. One bottle, one blanket, turn on the CD Player in her room that has a bedtime music running, some mix of classical, give her a smooch on the head, she won't be up for more than 15 more minutes....
12:30-3, work feverishly cleaning the house with Tracy, washing dishes, vacuuming, picking up the utter destruction Chloe has made of the house.
Between 3-4, Chloe is rumbling upstairs, she is up, and clearly fed up with being stuck in the crib.
4-6pm, That TV is on again, what a shock, she pulled the Wiggles video out of the pile I thought I hid, "Damn that Jeff, he's always sleeping... damned him indeed"
6pm, Tracy is getting ready to make dinner, still tending to the Chloe, I get in front of the laptop for a few minutes to check email, only to have her tug me out of the chair and back to the floor, where she is holding a book to ready. Back to more movie time...
7pm, the in-laws appear (if they weren't here the day before...) This buys me a few moments to do whatever I wanna do.
7:30, Get that bottle ready, time to prep Chloe for bed.
8:00, Get Chloe to bed
8:01, Give her a kiss, tell her I love her
8:02, Give Tracy a kiss, do my best to tell her all that I appreciate about her and what she does for the family
8:03, Go get a Corona Out of the fridge, sit down, and enjoy some real television.
8:45, try to find the ambition to do any of my side projects, Servers, Trixbox, DD-WRT
8:46, realize that I am a friggin lazy shit, find out if I have another cocktail for me in the fridge.
8:47, Outta beer, back to pop.
9:00, Get in another Netflix, that has been sitting on the DVD player for way too long..
11:00, Ponder bedtime...
11:01, Do bedtime
...Sunday, ditto.....
It's not a bad routine, but sometimes it feels like I should really try to do better.
7:30 am, starting to hear those mumbles coming out o Chloe's room. In my head I think "If I roll over and act like I didn't hear it, she will chill out for another 45 minutes or so, more sleep time for me." Proceed to roll over feeling relieved that it is not a weekday....
7:45 am, Chloe is hollering something, the words unintelligible, I assume it is something along the lines of "I know you're in there Dad, I'm just going to keep on hollering till you free me from this cage!" Time to wake up I think..... Gotta make sure Tracy doesn't get away with sleeping either! One smack to the ass follows... :-) (Sorry hun, we know we do that to each other all the time, have to admit it...)
7:50am, tote the kid downstairs, get a new diaper on her. Wish to myself there was some switch that would turn on a potty-trained mode.
7:55am, Turn on Playhouse Disney, this channel will be on for a while. we may sneek in book or 2 every now and then, but mostly the television. The guilt typically sets in telling myself we should be doing something far more fulfilling than this, sometimes, I switch up, most of the time, I don't....
8:30, "Kid-O" makes a dash to the Kitchen, hollering something, the kid speak filter turns on, and I start asking the questions like "You hungry?" or "You want something to drink?" She typically pulls the fridge open and shows us what she wants.
8:45, trying to eat my bowl of cereal, Kid-o no longer has any interest in what she was munching on, she now absolutely has to have whats in my bowl. For the tens of times I have probably said no, this time a yes is typically okay. Were sharing Cookie Crisp the rest of the way to the bottom of the bowl...
8:47, Chloe wants something from the counter that there is no way in hell she should have, those lips sag in the ends, and the tantrum is about to ensue. Here comes the yelling!
8:50, Yeah she's over it, already giggling again while watching the Wiggles.
9:00, Tracy will start running a list of all the thing that we absolutely have to get done, either for that day, or for the next 3 weeks, and adamantly describe how little time we have to get them done. This must typically raise my blood pressure a few notches every time.
9:10-12, A mix of Playhouse Disney, Finding Nemo, and Madagascar. I miss watching the Today show, or even the news! My internal dialogue speaks "Who is president again?, oh thats right..."
12:15, time to put the kid down for a nap, she usually doesn't put much of a dispute up over it. One bottle, one blanket, turn on the CD Player in her room that has a bedtime music running, some mix of classical, give her a smooch on the head, she won't be up for more than 15 more minutes....
12:30-3, work feverishly cleaning the house with Tracy, washing dishes, vacuuming, picking up the utter destruction Chloe has made of the house.
Between 3-4, Chloe is rumbling upstairs, she is up, and clearly fed up with being stuck in the crib.
4-6pm, That TV is on again, what a shock, she pulled the Wiggles video out of the pile I thought I hid, "Damn that Jeff, he's always sleeping... damned him indeed"
6pm, Tracy is getting ready to make dinner, still tending to the Chloe, I get in front of the laptop for a few minutes to check email, only to have her tug me out of the chair and back to the floor, where she is holding a book to ready. Back to more movie time...
7pm, the in-laws appear (if they weren't here the day before...) This buys me a few moments to do whatever I wanna do.
7:30, Get that bottle ready, time to prep Chloe for bed.
8:00, Get Chloe to bed
8:01, Give her a kiss, tell her I love her
8:02, Give Tracy a kiss, do my best to tell her all that I appreciate about her and what she does for the family
8:03, Go get a Corona Out of the fridge, sit down, and enjoy some real television.
8:45, try to find the ambition to do any of my side projects, Servers, Trixbox, DD-WRT
8:46, realize that I am a friggin lazy shit, find out if I have another cocktail for me in the fridge.
8:47, Outta beer, back to pop.
9:00, Get in another Netflix, that has been sitting on the DVD player for way too long..
11:00, Ponder bedtime...
11:01, Do bedtime
...Sunday, ditto.....
It's not a bad routine, but sometimes it feels like I should really try to do better.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Its been a while again!
Time to get caught up again....
Got hired in to ITP finally after over a year, nothing like the comfort of salaried paycheck. Only wish it was with a bunch that didn't seem so volatile as an organization. They may have a ruffling of feathers in the next few months, but I don't think it will affect me or my job, the people that I work for "really" don't want any of our tech team to leave, I am positive it will work out.
It is interesting getting older when you see things you have lived through, and watch it happening to other people. There is a coworker in my department, he is single, and nearly impossible to keep up with when it comes to the work he is doing in the department. He will do computer stuff all night I think, at home or at work, till whatever hours. It makes me feel like he is going to get further in the job than me. That used to be me back in the day at the old company. Having a family changes that dynamic, I feel sometimes like I could be much better at my job, and could excel further. A family takes so much time, it seems impossible to be Exceptional at both. When I have to choose, I choose to be exceptional as a family man, but sometimes I look at what the new guy is doing, and get jealous, but I have to keep it in perspective. People know what kind of work you're capable of, staying up till 11 at work every night doesn't always prove what you want it to...
Chloe is about halfway through her alphabet, and one tough kid to catch when it comes to a diaper change. Wish she would hurry up and sit on a toilet like big kids, but thats my job to make happen. Guess I need to hurry up...
Got all the Christmas decorations up on the house, nice an early. What a relief! I will have to post pictures of it later on....
I almost forgot to make a post about 2 buddies of mine, Todd Berry, and Chuck Alberts. ( I type their names in this on purpose, I hope it ends up in Yahoo...) They seemed to have come to the conclusion that I am some sort of friggin whacko, and refuse to hang out with me anymore. It makes me feel really bad, and during this time of the year, I think of all of the things that we would of done, and now we do nothing. I loathe them for giving up on our friendship the way they did. My daughter will not know them now, and that makes me sad. I hope they will change their perpective on me some day. That narrows down my running list of close local friends to 2, Brian, J, and Jason. When did I turn into this hermit that I am now?
Got hired in to ITP finally after over a year, nothing like the comfort of salaried paycheck. Only wish it was with a bunch that didn't seem so volatile as an organization. They may have a ruffling of feathers in the next few months, but I don't think it will affect me or my job, the people that I work for "really" don't want any of our tech team to leave, I am positive it will work out.
It is interesting getting older when you see things you have lived through, and watch it happening to other people. There is a coworker in my department, he is single, and nearly impossible to keep up with when it comes to the work he is doing in the department. He will do computer stuff all night I think, at home or at work, till whatever hours. It makes me feel like he is going to get further in the job than me. That used to be me back in the day at the old company. Having a family changes that dynamic, I feel sometimes like I could be much better at my job, and could excel further. A family takes so much time, it seems impossible to be Exceptional at both. When I have to choose, I choose to be exceptional as a family man, but sometimes I look at what the new guy is doing, and get jealous, but I have to keep it in perspective. People know what kind of work you're capable of, staying up till 11 at work every night doesn't always prove what you want it to...
Chloe is about halfway through her alphabet, and one tough kid to catch when it comes to a diaper change. Wish she would hurry up and sit on a toilet like big kids, but thats my job to make happen. Guess I need to hurry up...
Got all the Christmas decorations up on the house, nice an early. What a relief! I will have to post pictures of it later on....
I almost forgot to make a post about 2 buddies of mine, Todd Berry, and Chuck Alberts. ( I type their names in this on purpose, I hope it ends up in Yahoo...) They seemed to have come to the conclusion that I am some sort of friggin whacko, and refuse to hang out with me anymore. It makes me feel really bad, and during this time of the year, I think of all of the things that we would of done, and now we do nothing. I loathe them for giving up on our friendship the way they did. My daughter will not know them now, and that makes me sad. I hope they will change their perpective on me some day. That narrows down my running list of close local friends to 2, Brian, J, and Jason. When did I turn into this hermit that I am now?
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