Some Mondays are just better than others.... This morning has been a typically hectic one. Got in for systems verification to find a mail server for Coldwater has gone down, all it gave me was a blue screen of death, ** Hardware Malfunction **, not a good sign, especially when all the array was running with green lights, (bad little controller, it is not okay...)
Oh well, had a good streak going there, almost 3 Mondays in a row, no issues. They can't all be perfect.
Chloe is really showing remarkable changes, I am sure they are all typical for kids her age, but amazing to watch when its your own daughter. She has been going to the gate that runs upstairs, and when she is tired, she goes up to it, with her blanket she sleeps with, and gives it a shake, and looks at us. I love it, finally the girl knows when she is tired, and wants to actually sleep. Now if I can just get her to quit fighting me when I change her clothes, then I will be one giddy lil kid!
At the end of the month, ITP will have a choice on hiring me on in a full-time, salaried capacity. From all their indicators, getting hired in is really a "formality" at this point, but I will feel better about the formalities when it actually happens. When the interview happens, I will be able to better establish my salary, and descriptive role, besides being NSE "Network Systems Engineer" I am hoping to get better situated into what they call "Level 2" work, which is in a higher capacity, and less with end users. I have been trying to get more project work from Jason, the Lead Engineer, but it is a bit competitive with Troy (My partner) looking for some of the same work too. He tends to get more opportunities that turn up "on the fly", because he doesn't have kids and a wife waiting for him at home. I would like to get a crack at a few of those opportunities, but find it difficult explaining to the wife why I am working late. She has a good point that she nearly always brings to the table, "You home life needs to come first." She's right, but at the same time the looming feeling of getting overlooked for new projects plagues me every time I have to tell them that I have to get home and watch Chloe. But it isn't a hard choice, it is just one of those things you have to do for the family. No debating it. I do tend to look back at how I would of handled it if I was 5 years younger, wow, I would be kicking even more serious ass at this. But hey, I am satisfied with the results so far, no complaints there...
I have so many projects at home to finish, I find myself doing the nerdy thing, writing them all down in Outlook, and trying to put due dates on them to keep myself in pace. Turn out I have no pace at all and they are all red with tardiness.... I really have to get my side projects going again, and wifey is going to have to come to grips with it too, they will take more than 3 hours to complete sometimes, she or someone else will need to watch Chloe, no debating it...
Going to check on wifey's progress with the Wellbutrin tonight. Last time I counted pills in the jar I had come up with 58 out of the original 60 in the jar, I bet when I count again, it will be at about 52, when it should be half gone by now. She really hates the idea of what the pills do, and I can't blame her, I never think a magic pill will fix anything, but the odds of her going back to a Psychologist are slim at best, so she needs all the help she can get.
I ran a chart showing the account balance trend for the last 1-1/2 years. We go from having thousands, then having Chloe for a few months, and starting to take her to daycare, and then me losing the last job, we watched the balance pretty much fall off the map. Scary to watch, hard to fix.
