Otto had trouble this week with our boss. Otto mentioned to me that even thought the problem between them was the point of discussion, I still somehow got my name thrown into the mix, with claims of me trying to take things over. Even accusing me of trying to tell Otto what to do in an email where even Rich agreed that Otto was asking our opinion on putting some Internet radio equipment in a cabinet. All I answered is "yes." Somehow that still got misconstrued into me telling Otto what to do. This is bullshit. My boss needs to finish this ranting about me, and help me rebuild the bridge we burned. It's imperative. When a simple "yes" in an email turns into a rant, we all need to dig deeper and find out what the real problems are. I am really working my ass off to rebuild the trust between us, sending him far more information every day then he could possibly ever need. A while back he had told me that I wasn't trying hard enough to keep him informed of stuff going on. None of this is really that big of a deal. But it sucks to work every day and feel like you have to watch every thing you say, and if you say to much, you're going to be considered "Cavalier."
On the project side, I don't really see much that there is for me to do, I suspect that there is some stuff to do for Barry County, but Jason keeps doing it all himself. This only furthers my belief that I am for some deeper reason than I understand, am on a blacklist of some sort. I have a lot to offer, but nobody seems to be taking me up on it. Jason seems to be withholding some things about my work, and Brian, my boss, has made his concerns openly known to me. When it really comes down to it, I m really thankful that I am doing the work that I am, even if it as basic as the simple tech support. I just hate to watch projects get offered to Rich, when he has already made it known to everyone around us that he is at his limit. In a conversation Rich and I had a few days ago, we got into a discussion about trying to keep up with Jason, and all the studying he does on server and networking stuff. I had to to comment that after watching how much time both Rich and Jason dedicate to computer stuff, I wished they would both have kids now, just so I wouldn't feel like I was left so far behind on the research side. That thought really nailed it on the head for me.
