I can not even believe what has transpired over the last 24 hours. Pro-Tec has requested my resignation, of sorts. They have been kind enough to let me stay till I can find something, my trust in them is the lacking as typical.
TRacy is so frustrated with me, and I can't blame her. We got so far in the last 2 years, gettting back so much we lost. A house, no legal issues, and now this. I feel as if I am cursed sometimes. It feels like every time I find a comfortable time in my life, it gets all turned upside down all over again. Tracy has a good point when she says that "she puts up with her school, and really hates that place." Why can't I? It is a good question I am not sure if I can answer for her right now. I hope to soon.
One thing I do know for sure, no matter what Dale claims is the problem, and from his perspective its all me, I know for certain, that it lies in him too. For him to find himself not partially accountable for this deparaging event makes him an ignorant ass. I wish he realized that. He never will, due to the fact that he only is concerned with his own agenda, which by the way has no alignment with anyone else at Pro-Tec besides himself, Ron, and Frank. Him and Ron will never possess the communication skills it will take to allow Pro-Tec to succeed without Frank. And when that void needs filling in the next 3-5 years, GME will take care of it. In 5 years, I will check back with the remnants of what I used to know and enjoy about this place and see how it worked out.
Every now and then, I get a good vibe, and know I am right. The vibe right now is that I need to take a new leap of faith and get involved full time in IT. It makes perfect sense, and like the first week I sat at Pro-Tec doing CAD, I remember how scared I was, and not knowing if I would be able to do it. Thats the feeling I will soon have somewhere else. I know it.
I am going to come out of this fine.
I just wish my family didn't have to feel so scared about the uncertainty.
I must make this transition fast, for my family, I owe it to them , and love them so much, I cant bear to see them hurt like this.
