Good day yesterday, made a lot of progress, and rebuilt a little self-confidence. The hardest part about getting shitcanned like this is managing to get back on the horse and ride. Self-confidence is probably the most key thing to successful interviews, and sometimes it is is less than lacking in me.
My buddy Bonzai has been such a good resource in getting leads together. No matter how bleak things may feel, he always manages to make me feel like I am back in control. Just talking to him gives me the subtle reminder of a time when I was making a difference at my job. It was years ago, but it was a great time. It reminds me that when I wonder if I am just screwed in the head sometimes, getting myself into this position I am in, that it wasnt me that changed, this place changed, and Bonzai is my reminder of that. I was so successful then. Without the support of your leaders, you will suffer a stagnate existence. Do your leaders really support you?
I really don't mean this in a bad way, but I cant wait till Chloe sleeps more than 4 hours at a time. Lack of sleep is really getting to me. But I'll keep on smiling, what else can I do... When she smiles at me in the morning, proving that she is the only morning person in the household, how can I not smile back! I am dying to hear what her voice sounds like, the grunts, and yells are one thing, but the anticipation of getting to hear her say daddy for the first time is killing me
Got to get the resume revised this morning, saw a few descreptancies in it yesterday.
No, Tracy, I am not going to sell my car, just because I may not have a job in 2 months! Saving a hundred dollars a month isnt going to put a scratch in the thousands of dollars missing if theres no check coming in. But in a month and a half, I'll revisit that thought.... Am I humble this week, yes. Am I going to lose all my stubbornness, I DON'T THINK SO!
