...and I have no job. I haven't had a job technically for 3 months, 4 months physically. It is descending on me that this is going to be a problem.
I am getting really worried about it. I have got to get more time invested in this hunt, an I have to be far more diligent about making calls back, and reaching people.
I was pissy about it this morning, and the wife naturally thought it was about her, and never even tried to ask what was really bothering me, that pissed me off even more. She has spent all week doing homework, and she complains that Chloe has been at daycare all week. I think that if she knew what was bothering me, she still wouldn't care this week. She seems to be in "take care of myself" mode thsi week, a mode that I know quite well, but eery now and then I would really like to be asked about what I am feeling, and what I think we need to do sometimes.
The IT work is drying up, going to have to rebudget things at the end of August if nothing works out.
As I write this Tracy insisted on using the computer upstairs beacuse she needs a program on it. I sit and wait to use it because all my agent results are on it. I think she thinks that her schooling is more important than the job. She's gonna get a rude awakening soon.
